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ANXIETY

(conducting on a concert tonight and famous people will be there)

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

(so of course it was time for me to distract myself by changing the theme)

Rosa del ciel - Io non diro - Lasciate i monti - Vieni Imeno

This is supposed to be celebrating a happy moment - O and E are getting married! Why do I always have the two solo arias at the beginning of this video stuck in my head when I’m feeling sad? I ask myself. 

Not my favorite singers, but the music making is very sensitive. Also, this production is visually so beautiful. 

Three Excerpts from Kleinzeit

In memoriam Russel Hoban.

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wait, what?

I:

-went through about 25 various texts on Orpheus

-found one essay that seemed best for my purposes

-scanned and sent it to my senior sem prof.

that essay:

-is the ASSIGNED READING for next the next session of my senior sem class, during which I will present my project.

ahhhhhhh? this is like being a professor? I can’t profess?

god, I hope I have enough to say to fill up the time, and that it isn’t boring.

[Flash 9 is required to listen to audio.]

15 Step

You reel me out, then you cut the string

my mood.

Sep 2

Erstaunte euch nicht auf attischen Stelen die Vorsicht
menschlicher Geste? war nicht Liebe und Abschied
so leicht auf die Schultern gelegt, als wär es aus anderm
Stoffe gemacht als bei uns? Gedenkt euch der Hände,
wie sie drucklos beruhen, obwohl in den Torsen die Kraft steht.
Diese Beherrschten wußten damit: so weit sind wirs,
dieses ist unser, uns so zu berühren; stärker
stemmen die Götter uns an. Doch dies ist Sache der Götter.

Fänden auch wir ein reines, verhaltenes, schmales
Menschliches, einen unseren Streifen Fruchtlands
zwischen Strom und Gestein. Denn das eigene Herz übersteigt uns
noch immer wie jene. Und wir können ihm nicht mehr
nachschaun in Bilder, die es besänftigen, noch in
göttliche Körper, in denen es größer sich mäßigt.

~

Weren’t you astonished by the caution of human gestures on Attic gravestones?
Wasn’t love and departure placed so gently on shoulders
that it seemed to be made of a different substance than in our world?
Remember the hands, how weightlessly they rest, though there is power in the torsos.
These self-mastered figures know: “We can go this far,
this is ours, to touch one another this lightly; the gods can press down harder upon us.
But that is the gods’ affair.”

If only we too could discover a pure, contained, human place,
our own strip of fruit-bearing soil between river and rock.
Four our own heart always exceeds us, as theirs did.
And we can no longer follow it,
gazing into images that soothe it or into the godlike bodies where,
measured more greatly, it achieves a greater repose.

-

RMR, excerpt from the Second Duino Elegy

translation by Stephen Mitchell

[Flash 9 is required to listen to audio.]

Radiohead - Live in Praha - 22 How To Disappear Completely

The moment’s already passed,

Yeah, it’s gone.

I’m not here,

This isn’t happening.

Orpheus upon turning to gaze at Eurydice.

~

I should clarify, so that no-one gets the wrong idea; I think of this song as Orpheus upon turning to gaze at Eurydice. I remember reading somewhere on the internet that Thom Yorke wrote this in Dublin (hence the reference to the Liffey) at the beginning of a big tour, when he was very anxious and wanted to disappear (of course). To me, though, this song is about anxiety in the present moment: how clear and immediate the moment of “now” can seem during a crisis or a panic attack. I’m interested in how it deals with the denial: denial of one’s identity (“I’M not here”, “That’s not ME”), denial of not-being-in-control (“I go where I please”), and denial of the immediate present moment (“now”, “here” is elsewhere). Interesting to think about how anxiety maybe causes us to feel this way.